7 hour session at the zen9 fit programme class thingy

my muscles STILL hurt, but it was totally worth it, and I got a trophy! Just shows you that hard work pays.

size 2

FINALLY! ugh, I wanna be a size 0 so badly but this is so extremly close >< It sucks though that my  family have begun to watch me and stuff now, want me to be fat. WELL IM NOT GONNA GIVE UP I WILL BE A SIZE 0! JUST YOU WAIT! ILL MAKE ALL OF YOUS WHOVE CALLED ME FAT REGRET IT!

Is ''starvation mode'' a myth

So I was randomly looking up how to increase metabolism when I came accross this article on fattyfightsback's blog. I will just copy and paste it to avoid the trouble for you people. (link)

MTYHBUSTERS: Starvation Mode

There are a number of nutritional myths running around out there on the web. Mythbusters is one of my favourite shows and misinformation annoys me, so I decided to do a series of articles on each myth examining what is and isn't true about it. (Plus stealing the Mythbusters title makes me feel like Kari Byron, or at least like I could be her mother.)
So let's start by examining the whole "starvation mode" idea that you see all the time in articles about dieting. I picked this one to start with because I'm now tracking my food on My Fitness Pal and the number of people there screaming "starvation mode" is about 10x higher than most of the other weight loss boards I go to. They annoy the heck out of me, so I want to "answer" them in a permanent way vs. just arguing with them over and over on the boards there.
So what is the Starvation Mode Myth? It goes like this:
"If you don't eat enough, you won't lose weight!"
Okay, so all I have to do to lose weight is ... eat more food! Wow, isn't that awesome? If I stall out at 800 calories, I'll just go up to 1000. And if I stall at 1000, I'll go to 1200. If that doesn't work, how about 1500? 1800? 2200? Oh wait, when I ate 2200 calories, I weighed 223 pounds. Okay, that's not going to work.
But what if I just don't go below the magic "1200" that "everyone" says "no one" should go below? That must be what they mean by "starvation mode," right? If I stay at 1200, I will lose weight but if I go below that, I won't.
The problem with this idea is that, if it were true, no one would die from starvation and obviously people do. Clearly, even if you eat what is obviously too few calories to be healthy, such as an anorexic does, you will continue to lose weight.
So where did this idea -- that not eating enough calories makes you not lose weight -- come from? 
It started with the famous Minnesota starvation study. Some normal-weighted men agreed to live on a compound where their exercise and diet was strictly controlled. For portions of the study, they were on a "starvation diet" which is defined as 50% of the calories your body needs to function. 
For me, these days, that's about 750-850 calories a day. So I was on a starvation diet up for the first four months after my surgery. Yet I lost weight just fine during that period -- better than fine, really. Most of the people on The Biggest Loser are also on starvation diets, from what I can tell. They may eat a lot more than I do but they also exercise strenuously 6-8 hours a day. So they are often below 50% of their calorie expenditure for the day. They seem to lose just fine too.
How can this be?!
The answer lies in what actually happened to the Minnesota guys when they were on their starvation diets.
Like most of us on a diet, their metabolisms did slow down. In fact, after they'd been on this diet for a while -- we're talking months, not days here -- their body fat percentage got to a point below what is considered minimal to live on (about 5% for a guy, 6% for a gal). At this point, their metabolism had slowed down as much as 40%. But -- and this is the important point for those of us on a diet -- they continued to lose weight. Even with that big of a slow down in their BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate), they were still operating at a great enough calorie deficit to lose.
If this is true with a 40% slow down, it's even more true when the slow down is somewhere in the 14 - 22% range, which is more where if falls with normal dieting.
WARNING MATH CONTENT AHEAD:
Take an individual who needs 2,000 calories per day to maintain their current weight. Assuming calorie expenditure remains the same, they will lose (approximately) as follows:

Calories	Expected Loss Per Week	Actual Loss
2,000	0 pound	0 pound
1,500	1 pound	1 pound
1,000	2 pounds	2 pound
500	3 pounds	2¼ to 2½ pounds

As you can see from the table, once you go below a certain calorie level, you aren't getting the weight loss you'd expect. This is because your BMR will go down more if you eat only 500 calories compared to eating 1500. But, as you can see, you are still losing more than if you were eating 1000 calories. 
This is a lot different than the "no" weight loss that the "starvation mode" myth touts.
The other important point to note about this study is that it was performed on normal-weighted men. When starvation studies have been done on the obese, they find that the impact of the starvation diet is much less. Our bodies have fat stores designed to get us through a famine (i.e., a diet) and when we have a famine (i.e., a diet), those fat stores get used. The drastic slowdown of the metabolism doesn't happen until those fat stores are largely gone -- which takes a lot longer for the obese than for those who only have to lose 10-25 pounds.
So why are we told not to go under 1200 calories a day, unless under a doctor's supervision? 
Mostly because, the more you reduce your intake, the harder it is to get the nutritients you need from food. If you are on a very low calorie diet (as I am), you need to see your doctor(s) regularly, get labs done regularly, etc. Not to mention, vitamin supplementation is a must. Doing what I'm doing on your own can be dangerous, as you may not know or noticed the signs of a vitamin or mineral deficiency. Don't forget: some vitamin deficiencies can kill you!
Another reason not to go below a certain calorie expenditure is that human beings are not machines and, unlike the guys in the Minnesota study, we aren't living on a compound with our activity and food strictly controlled. As a result, when we reduce our calories substantially, there is a tendency to subconsciously (or even consciously) reduce our calorie expenditure. Combine this with our tendency to under-report what we eat and over-report our exercise, and you can see where we can get into trouble.
As an example, one Saturday I did a killer two hour workout. After which, I came home and took a three hour nap! Obviously my calorie expenditure that day was lower than if I hadn't taken the nap.
Now, I still lost weight that week. But if I was only eating 500 calories for months at time, I doubt I'd be able to have done that workout to begin with -- I'd still be doing the 30 min. low intensity workouts that I started with. Plus, I might also be taking naps a lot more than once in a while. Both of which would have impacted my weight loss because they would have decreased my calorie expenditure. 
Eating more over time has allowed me to exercise more so that, as a result, my rate of weight loss hasn't gone down as much as it could have as my calories have gone up. Plus I'm happy because I'm fitter and healthier.

I hope this cleared up things for many of you, starvation mode is just a lie parents make up so you'll eat more and gain weight. They don't actually want you to lose weight you know ='_'=

Got scales fixed (finally). found out I'm 7pounds to goal weight

So my goal weight is 98lbs
Right now I weighed myself after 2 freaking years, I was 105lbs

I'm actually glad we have scales now, coz It keeps me more motivated then without them.

I hope to be 98lbs by January.
Wish me luck!

made it through my school tour without binging on sweets.

So we had this school tour and had some boat ride cruise type thingy over the harbour or whatever its called. My mom packed a truckload of sweets and crisps on my bag, and I was really craving sweets at that time. But then I rememberd I had a 30 calorie candycane in my pocket. I was about to binge, so I had to have it. As soon as I started sucking on it, my craving went away. I know it's a sweet and all bad and that, but it's not that calorie laden at all, and I got some more energy from it to do a little more exercise and burn even more calories. That was all I had all day. That small candycane. My dinner I threw in the bin while my mom was distracted. Feel proud of myself, but really weak too....but I just know that it's working then. Wish me the best on today

I have a nasty habit of purging whenever I eat, which is terrible, so I barely eat at all to avoid it. Whenever I see of food and then think of the horribleness of puking it out, I lose my appetite and decide I don't want to be disgusting and do that, because purging is just horrible, and everyone can smell the sick off you.

Been going good so far

It's been super difficult today too, coz my mom gave me a load of junk from the party before in my lunch, and there's been like 3 parties already at school coz it's the end of the year. I haven't failed yet, but to stop my cravings I have been having this very low calorie diluted juice. it is helping my sweet craving, and I know it will be worth it if I just resist the party food today. I can't binge on food, and I can't purge it out either coz I'm at school.

I am NOT gonna be a failure.

Anti-thinspo/thinspo video

yeah, the fat girls a bit gross...speacially her wiggling her stomach like that..

gonna be a tough day tomorrow

It's my dad's birthday you see, so there is going to be a party with a lot of junk food. And of course, cake. I feel horrible just thinking about it. I know I must not decide to eat, but I most likely will be made to eat something, which I will have to purge out....

Wish me luck. I never want to be like this girl...