wow im still here lol

 still have an ed but i just get really inactive online :\

not thinspo skinny but at least i can say i spent half my life underweight now. #epic 

does anyone unironically wanna be my ana buddy

 or ed buddy lmfao. i have ana bp and im able to give loads of tricks related to purging. legit i know all the tricks and can purge literally everything out. i'm so fucking sad and lonely lol pls give me attention 

i've had this stupid blog since i was a preteen but i still havent deleted it in my 20s lol

 I'm just anxious all the time and lonely. I wish i could've joined some ED community, like MPA or some shit but i've been too anxious to join it. I'm underweight rn but i'm so fucking stupid i've been struggling to get to 38kg for the past 2 years now lmao. should just take the plunge and starve myself completely but i keep having the urge to binge and purge. idfk. at least i know how to b&p without leaving anything in. I'm 42.2 rn and i really just want to shed the last few kgs to get to my UGW of 38. don't even know why 38 is such an IMPORTANT NUMBER but it is lol.

I'm just too anxious to join anything. I'm thinking of ED twt but i've n e v e r been on twitter so i'm scared. I wish i could get an ana buddy or just a fucking buddy or anything. I've got nothing going for me in life. The only thing I think about is my weight and how fat I am. I'm really depressed and it's a constant. 

Rejected from skinny gossip??

 I really dunno why that happened. My BMI is 16 and I've been hovering and dipping into 15 for a while. Maybe my answers weren't suitable enough?? Trying to join is part of a relapse anyway but I'm just :/ confused. I definitely meet the BMI requirements. 

TOOLS: dont do it

 You all know what I'm alluding to. 

That shit will get caught in your throat and you'll die choking and surrounded by your own vomit. It's not worth it. Your worth more than that. Even if you grip with the force of the hulk you're going to be malnourished and you're literally getting sick you idiot, your grip with falter, and you'll die. Lax will fuck up your colon so you cant poop so that's not worth it. The holy grail of this bullshit harm reduction is using your fingers or teaching your ab muscles how to puke. Don't die with a tool. And dont die using the solutions either. 

yeah wtf was with those pedo ana coaches anyway

 Like, bad enough these poor girls had an ED, but you had to prey on them too?? fuck off coaches lol. 

Why is starving urself so desirable anyway

 Is this a direct effect of the diet industry? Fat-shaming in response to the obesity epidemic? Lads all I know is if i get fat ill kill myself