Wednesday, 7 November 2012

I am the worst human being on the planet

So today, I ate 500 freaking calories, then puked it all out! Oh god, it was terrible! I though I could do better than that! i can't believe I did that! I am just a fit lazy piece of uselessness. Oh and I got a C for one of my exam, I know what you're thinking , that its no big deal. Well, according to my dad it is! He shouted at me for hours and put me down a lot. I hate myself! I'm just terrible. I have to try to get better next time, even though I did study and try my hardest. He said that he is going to cut down my computer time. I wish I could die.But I can't coz I don't want to die fat..

All these thingsare going through my head and more, how can I keep hiding my anorexia from them, they''re bound to find out sooner or later, how am I supposed to get thin if I binged and purged! The fat probably has already clinged onto my body. What if they find out about my blog, they're going to probably check sooner or later! Will they notice my weight loss?

I just really really hate myself right now. I'm literally crying because of such a failure I've become. 

3 comments:

  1. ur brain has already stopped growing due to malnutrition (look this up if u dont believe me) and there is no point... just no point in u studying. too late :/ wow u really let ur parents down. all cos u aspire to be a skeleton. u have a sad life... adele is probably prettier than u... shes absolutely gorgeous and i love her attitude towards mean people. and anas and mias .. shes not like them which is AMAZING. great example!

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  2. You deserve the suffering that you create for yourself. Idiot.

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    1. shut the fuck up nobody creates eating disorders for themselves. do you even know what eating disorders are?

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