does anyone unironically wanna be my ana buddy

 or ed buddy lmfao. i have ana bp and im able to give loads of tricks related to purging. legit i know all the tricks and can purge literally everything out. i'm so fucking sad and lonely lol pls give me attention 

i've had this stupid blog since i was a preteen but i still havent deleted it in my 20s lol

 I'm just anxious all the time and lonely. I wish i could've joined some ED community, like MPA or some shit but i've been too anxious to join it. I'm underweight rn but i'm so fucking stupid i've been struggling to get to 38kg for the past 2 years now lmao. should just take the plunge and starve myself completely but i keep having the urge to binge and purge. idfk. at least i know how to b&p without leaving anything in. I'm 42.2 rn and i really just want to shed the last few kgs to get to my UGW of 38. don't even know why 38 is such an IMPORTANT NUMBER but it is lol.

I'm just too anxious to join anything. I'm thinking of ED twt but i've n e v e r been on twitter so i'm scared. I wish i could get an ana buddy or just a fucking buddy or anything. I've got nothing going for me in life. The only thing I think about is my weight and how fat I am. I'm really depressed and it's a constant.